on small burning embers

"Lined hearths are easily identified by the presence of fire-cracked rock, often created when the heat from the fires inside the hearths chemically altered and cracked the stone. Often present are fragmented fish and animal bones, carbonized shell, charcoal, ash, and other waste products, all imbedded in a matrix of soil that has been deposited atop the hearth. Unlined hearths, which are less easily identified, may also include these materials. Because of the organic nature of most of these items, they can be used to pinpoint the date the hearth was last used via the process of radiocarbon dating. Although carbon dates can be negatively affected if the prehistoric users of the hearth burned old wood or coal, the process is typically quite reliable."

(burn burn burn...)

its ok its still there i'm pretty sure don't worry

black black black black eyeliner girls always forever.

it was soft. and. warm and. hazy from fairy lights and street lights. i put down three mismatched sofa pillows without waking the others up, curled up under my duvet, closed my sore eyes and went to sleep.

my house would sound like something made up if i tried to write it which i guess we did but before writing it down not during which is definitely the best way.



(kiss kiss bliss blissesplease please please((([ i feel like flies are flying round my eyes and the walls keep shrinking at me]))

tenses

ai ai agh ah ahhh a sudden loneliness, hunger and a longing to speak like i used to we say who are you like you are plural i remember work is to be love made visible something i read a very ever such a long time ago much further down than this where i don't go very often any more everywhere people are making long distance phonecalls back to their sixteen-year-old-ness the gap seems so wide between this and everything else i want to go back to the countryside to go back to find the beginnings of this grieving to places you have to drive to and footbridges over dual carriageways and holding a torch so the bus can see you and sleeping all in one room because we burnt til we fell asleep because we hadn't done this before these were the first times.